Change

a little ramble that I had to get out about change....

Change is right there in front of our eyes… we can accept, run away and hide, or try to change it back. Some actually spend a long time trying to put things back the way that they were. Others freak and the only thing that they can think to fix it is either ignore it or flee from what might look somewhat challenging. Then you have the people that suck it up and just accept it try to go with what they have. Not too many people like change… sometime I don’t really like it myself. But I think what helps me “go with the flow” is the fact that I know that God has a plan and that the change that I may not like is for a reason. I never said that change was easy… the true is that it’s hard and to just say that “oh, he’s got it” like it’s no big deal ….it’s really hard I know.
You know I look at my life and the people in it and so much is different. I’m kind of wait for the time to come where what friends I had 5 years ago won’t remember me… and I don’t like that. It freaks me out that I’m not going to find friends and be able to move on like everyone around me. Then I think how much I have changed…. Have I really changed that much, am I a different person, am I a better person,…. I would like to think that I changed for the better, but to some I may have changed so much that “ I’m not the same person I used to be”… but is that really a bad thing… to them may be.
I really don’t think that I want to be stuck in the past…. I would like to be able to put my head up and move straight head. I do know that thing will get better, I do know that things will always change, and I do know that the people that you love and that love you will always be there for in the end right there next to you. I have to say without David that I wouldn’t be where I am today. I thank God everyday for him and hold him as close as I can… because I know that God gave me him to the strength that I need to get through life….. I also know that I am not alone especially when I have God and friends by my side! It makes me wonder why we would want to go back to the old or run away from the change when in the end you get something great. So even when things look like God has no plan for what is going on.... Just keep holding on because he won’t let you fall while he’s around.